thanks for the memories

"And still my heart pumps on. Even when broken it still works.

People never truly tire of playing games and dressing up, no matter how many years pass.

I don’t want anybody around me… I want to be on my own to grieve. I want to feel sorry for myself without symphathetic words and clinical explanations. I want to be illogical, self pitying, self examining, bitter and lost for just a few more days, please, world, and i want to do it alone.

When something tragic happened, you’ll find out that you, the tragicee, become the person that has to make everything comfortable for everyone else.

But more often than not, the easy decisions are the wrong decisions.

Be patient and tough; someday this pain will be useful to you.

It’s nice to be important. But it’s more important to be nice.

You have to take your moments. Don’t just go head first into everything, like a bull seeing red.

Everything grows. Including love. And with that growing everyday how can you expect missing her to ever fade away? Everything builds, including our ability to cope with it. that’s how we keep going."



I've got to get this book.

home sweet home

I'm home! After taking more than 24 hours. It was an arduous journey home, really. Flight delay for 2+ hours due to snow blizzard in Frankfurt ("today the airport is in chaos") which caused us to miss our connecting flight back to Singapore.

Will rant about Lufthansa and my terrible morning that time another time. SIA treated us nicely enough which was good.

The point of this entry is, I missed my 3 lectures today! :X Okay fine, 2 lectures rather. Could've made it for the third one if I had enough willpower. This is what jet lag does to you - it sucks away your energy and cause you to oversleep. This always happens though - it's not new. After every long-haul flight back I will sleep until 1plus pm the next day. Just that this time it came one day late.

I can't believe I overslept! Oversleeping almost never happens to me, believe it or not. Totally slept through my alarm, which never happens as well. I vaguely remember pulling my blanket to cover my naked legs (stared at my legs in awe the first time I wore FBTs after I came back; I had been so covered up!) and kicking my cushion onto the floor --- but I wasn't conscious then I think.

Haven't finished unpacking, but I think I need to start packing for hall soon --- I'm moving in like, tomorrow :/ 'Cos I have a 6pm-9pm seminar *Screams*

Sigh. Haven't stop perspiring since. At least I've chopped off my tresses now (!!!). Anyway, I'll still be updating this blog about the last few weeks of traveling + adventures while coming home + photos, so stay tuned!


Excited for Lynn and Kel, who are now going to live the life (while freezing their butts off hehe).

the air hangs with nostalgia

I feel an incredible sense of nostalgia as I put back the towels that I took out from the storeroom, remove the bedsheets and comforter from the bed that I had slept in for the past 5 months, take down the decorations from the wall etc.

The taxi from my place to the airport tomorrow costs a freaking SGD80.00!! !@$%#@$!%


ok, what's new right. It'll be the last time Sweden is burning holes in my (dad's) pocket.



Sigh.

assasination

I've spent the last four hours packing and my room still look very inhabitable, i.e. not much change except for the fact that my walls are a little barer than usual, shelves a bit emptier than usual but still filled with stuff. And I'm faced with the traumatizing fact that I actually don't have enough luggage space, because at this current stage my big pull luggage is filled already, my small pull luggage is filled already, and the duffel is going to be filled once I put certain stuff in, and I still have a lot of other certain stuff to put in .


AHHHH

Anyway, when I was in Prague, we had breakfast at this cafe and a song was playing and it sounded really nice at that time, nice enough for me to ask the waiter what song it was. A waiter who knew no English and thought I was asking for the menu when I pointed upwards to the stereo system. "The song, the song!" He got it and proceeded to write it down for me. I didn't look for the song online until today when I came across the piece of paper again.

Couldn't find it online initially 'cos it's a Czech band and the spelling was a bit tricky. But found it at last, and I still like it. The band is called Kryštof and the song is Atentát, which I found out means "assasination" haha so morbid right. But the lyrics are quite nice. You can google for it if you like the song :)

the end is near

I love it here, I really love it. My iTunes play while I cook, do the dishes, fold my clean clothes after laundry, and I sing to it. The peace around here, the snow outside the window. I won't be able to do this routine ever again.

I feel sad now when I wash my dishes, every movement is filled with heaviness. It's not that I don't want to go home, I do, I can't wait to be home, but still. But still I can't bear to leave this behind, knowing I'll never come back to this again.

I am sad.

so much snow everywhere

I'm back in Gothenburg, just. Spent the entire day traveling back from Amsterdam to Gothenburg. Walked with our pull luggage plus one extra 13kg duffel (no joke for girls) for 40 minutes from the hotel to the central station, 2+ hour bus ride from Amsterdam to Eindhoven, followed by 2h plane ride, followed by 3h train ride from Stockholm to Gothenburg. Left at 11am in the morning, reached home at 12am in the morning :/

But came back to find Gothenburg covered in snow!! ^^ Before we left the snowfall was totally meagre, now there are piles and piles of snow everywhere, even right outside my place! Makes me wanna make snowman as well ^^ But make snowman alone a bit loser :( hehehhee.

Oh wells. This does mark the end though. Going to do lots of laundry+vacuum tomorrow plus start packing for home. I'm nowhere near being done. HA.

current city: bruges

Bruges is really nice! A really nice break from Paris. Reached yesterday morning to a peaceful countryside-like place with sunshine (!!!) and fresh air empty of smoke.

Anyways, spent around SGD70 today on chocolates (omg)!!! And it really isn't a lot judging from the quantity. Oh wells. H&M sale here is better than anywhere so far, bought 3 items as well, which will probably be the last buys of the trip/exchange.

Bruges is a bit like Venice/Amsterdam with the canals. You will know what I mean when I upload photos next time. Yesterday and today was a far cry from each other 'cos yesterday was new year so the streets were rather empty, like a ghost town, but today it was just thronging with people, super crowded, and the smoke just came back again :( But there were hail storms today! Ok not storms exactly, but it was like raining just that it wasn't water but round bits of snow/hail :) nice!

Europe is starting to turn cold after the warm bout. Brrr.